Hard Choices

My life has been filled with some pretty hard choices lately. One of which was going in and speaking with the Temple president about my volunteer position. I love that man btw. We had a great council together. The purpose of the visit? To ask to be released- which I would rather die than ever do something like that. But it was necessary, so I did.

Asking for the release and getting it was a leap of faith. It was a leap because I love working at the temple. I didn't want to give it up. The president teased me about the release but ultimately signed my pink slip. Yes, it was actually a pink slip of paper. I did get a nice certificate of honorable release in the mail though. 

What caused this need for a release? My craziness, that's what. I heard about a charter school in Edgewood and decided that my kids need to go. What does that mean for me? 4 hours of commute time. I'm going to hopefully write up a full post on the school later. perhaps tomorrow. anyway I decided that it was time to put my body where my mouth is and do something about the education my kids are getting. If I wanted the world to change, I had better be willing to help. My way of helping is to give my kids a patriotic, constitutional, character driven, classic teaching methods education so they could help change the world. 

As another consequence of this decision I may end up losing my seminary calling as well. I have been on a ledge trying to see how this could possibly be part of the plan. I was near to having a full blown panic attack that I will lose 2 of the most important things in my life just so I can drive my kids to school everyday that's 55 minutes away. 

I took a step back and remembered that if I wanted to be a stripping warrior mother than I need to act like one. Making my kids education my priority was my new full time job and what is more important than that? 

I took a pretty big leap of faith. It's not anything that I can adequately articulate nor explain and I know no one really gets it, but that's ok. I seem to do different well so I may as well just stick with it.