I'm pretty sure my immune system is shutting down on me. I am not someone who gets sick and when I do it's usually for a day. I got sick at the New Year then I was well, but not great for a week and then on Saturday I was having a hard time talking myself into doing much of anything. By Sunday I had a strange dry spot in my throat that was causing me to cough. I got pegged after church to sub for one of the seminary teachers for the next day. What happens while I'm preparing the lesson? A full blown cough emerges.
My husband just asked me what I was doing. I told him that I was writing about going forward with faith. He said "we do that all the time" you should call it "forward with the flu" or "forward with faith and the flu."
Back to seminary preparation..... It was a good lesson. It was King Lamoi and Ammon and Aaron and King Lamoni's dad (who doesn't have a name) I had to combine 2 lessons which was hard to because they both had so much good stuff in them. All I could do as my cough worsened and my body began to ache was to pray that I could pull myself together enough and pull my sorry body out of bed the next morning at 5 to get myself there. I prayed that my cough would be gone enough to be able to teach and went forward with faith. It worked and as of last night, no one in the seminary class was infected with my illness. The lesson went pretty good and hopefully I got a couple of those questions in that will stick with them for awhile and cause their hearts to change.
By Tuesday my cough was subsiding and I had lots to do to prepare for a joint activity I was in charge of on Wed and the house to get ready for Emma's friend to come hang out with our animals while we left on our pilgrimage to the gilbert temple open house. I was moving full steam ahead trying to ignore the fact that my body was not doing that great.
Wed I was sensing trouble and by the time evening hit, I knew I was in trouble and was going to have to offer up pleadings again that I could pull it together enough to get the activity set up for the other leaders so that I could go to a mother daughter activity with my youngest that was during the same time. I was again moving forward with faith. I set up all the pvc pipes and got the floor all taped for human foosball before meeting Jordyn for her activity. The thought of letting her down on such a special event wasn't a possibility. I had a resurgence of energy and made it through.
When I finally got back home and had to pull everything together for the trip so that when I picked the kids up early from school we were all packed and ready. I found myself laying on the floor with the thought of lifting something as light as a sock too much effort for my body. At this point I started thinking that my immune system must be shutting down because surely I couldn't be getting worse after already being sick since Sunday. I found myself again moving forward with faith.
I slept pretty horribly and at midnight went downstairs to see if I had a fever because I was feeling like death. It was only 99 but I prayed that I could somehow pull through this and that sleep would cure me. We are taking my niece with us and she has been so excited so I couldn't let her down. My friend was looking forward to our visit and then the most important part of the trip.... Providing a spiritual experience for my kids. By 5 I felt like I was burning up and my body was aching so terribly that I drug myself down the stairs again to check and I had a 101.5 fever. Crap. I still did not except defeat. Evil dude was not going to keep us from the temple.
I decided to wake up my husband at this point and give him the bad news and tell him that I needed a blessing. I was willing to accept an non anointed blessing because I didn't think calling anyone was an option. I decided to stay downstairs and eat an early breakfast so I could take a bunch of advil and move forward with faith. At 6 am a knock was at the door and our sweet neighbor and friend came over to help Nate give me a blessing. My husband hates to call people and hates to bug people so this was a pretty big deal. I felt very loved. My fever has been gone since then except as I'm sitting in the car on our way and typing this I started feeling that feverish feeling again... It's not too bad, just 100.5. But I don't feel like dying so that's good.
The wife of the man that came over txt me and told me that she would pray for me so that we could go on our trip. I told her that nasty dude was not winning this battle. She said "of course he's not, we've go the priesthood." So true, We do have the priesthood and that gives us a huge advantage. We may loose some of the battles, but we will never loose the war.
My friend in Az called me a couple hours later and told me that her kids were dropping like flies to the flu. The only hitch that gave us is that we were going to send a couple of the kids to stay with her while the rest of us stayed in a hotel. Our room isn't big enough for 7 of us to stay in. It is a problem that is easily solved with more money for another hotel room. Again just moving forward with faith. I know I was supposed to ask my niece to come with us, so a little extra money when doing the right thing against powers not of our control is nothing but a thing.
I have a picture we took of our family's feet standing on a log that is hanging in our family room and below the picture it says "faith in every footstep." I love it. The Lord expects you to keep moving forward and not sit around waiting for conditions to make themselves perfect. There is no faith in that. So we just have to pray and have faith and when we are doing the right things we will be given the strength to accomplish those things.
There is an important element to the phrase, "move forward with faith" you can't forget the last part of that, which is the most important and where the power is.. "move forward in faith of Christ" if I were at my home computer and not on my mini, I would look up the scripture and quote it because their is power in the scriptures, so I'll just have to leave it for individual study.
Hopefully we don't have anymore hurdles for this trip, but I know if we do we can be strengthened in all things thru faith in Jesus Christ.
As I gave this the once over before hitting "publish" we got pulled over...luckily it was just a warning. Oh dear
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