Soda on the Brain

I gave up the evil nectar of my beloved 1/2 and 1/2 coke and diet coke.  I'll admit it, it was my drug.  I had no life goal of giving it up. I did have thoughts of wondering if I could.  I also didn't really like that I was so dependent upon a caffeinated drink of carbonated bliss to cure me of my bad moods.  I wanted to see if I could take a step towards 'sacrificing all' or 'giving away my sins' - not that drinking it was a sin.  I wanted to see if I could sacrifice something that I love for something better.  It was not all about soda and carbonation destroying my stomach health kick kinda thing, because I'm no health nut.  Just a religious nut ;0)

I went on the brain killing juice diet and had to quit for that.  I never set out with the goal of quitting. Everyday I think to myself, "is this the day that I will have a soda?"  When I ask myself that question, I never want it to be "the day" so I just haven't had one since October.  

I have had 2 dreams since then about drinking coke.  The last one had me questioning my integrity.  I took a drink and became shocked when I looked down at the cup and realized what I was drinking.  Then I had a little conversation with myself.  Well, I've already broken my streak so I might as well just finish it off.  I mean, I totally shouldn't waste it.  So, I drank it.  Then I felt guilty and bad about myself and wanted to hide the evidence.....most especially from my family that would certainly revel in my caving in to temptation.  My integrity is obviously in trouble! haha

My husband and my kids are constantly taunting me with sodas.  They are begging me to start drinking again because I was "nicer" on it.  Great!  Isn't that like calling someone a happy drunk?  

While we were traveling home from Nauvoo, we stopped in Independence for the night.  After I cooked dinner in the RV we drove it over to this little place for some homemade root beer with ice cream....which they called a "brown cow."  Here's the thing.  I forgot that a root beer float was actually made with.....soda!  I got about half way thru and realization dawned on me.  I'm such an airhead sometimes.  At least it wasn't caffeine because I probably would have fallen completely off the wagon at that point. 

As further proof of my airheadedness OR brain starved of caffeinated beverages....I was bragging to my husband how long it had been since I'd had a soda.  I was like-  Oh my goodness it has been so long...it's been like a year...I think I'm cured.  He looked at me like - really? is your brain working?  Obviously not, because when I whipped out my fingers to count on, I quickly discovered that it had only been 5 months....OR like 1 year in some other form of measurement!  Dude, I've got problems.